New YouTube Launch

Well it's official; no turning back now. I'm happy to report that I have officially launched my new YouTube channel with my first video. 

While it's not anything revolutionary to make a youtube video these days, it is a new accomplishment for me personally, and it is the big 'first step' towards creating and sharing part of myself. This blog post and single youtube video were created spontaneously, quickly and without my typical OCD processes. "Spontaneous" and "quick" are usually the complete opposite of how I operate. I'd describe myself more as a slow and steady, methodical, intentional kind of human. I lean into the notion that good things take time, and better things take...even more time. So, for this quick and unscripted video and blog post to happen - it's a big deal and a very uncomfortable experience for myself.

I dare you to try telling a perfectionist not to proofread...anything. Or try to stop them from "double checking something...just one more time, real quick". 

That's pretty much what I just did - to myself. I didn't love it. But you know what else? I didn't die. And no one mocked me.

No script, no hours of research and prep to create something and yet, I still was able to create something anyway. I think one trick to making this happen is by making quicker* decisions and then executing on those decisions, immediately. Basically, make moves faster than you have time to think it over. Don't give yourself the opportunity to second guess or doubt. 

Official evidence of my super cool first video 

About this first video

I recorded a random video of myself talking about fluffy yarn and my latest knitted scarf. Quick edit on the video, and then just ::boop:: uploaded it right to my youtube channel.

In hindsite, I probably should have shared it with someone before I made it public. Not that I expect the press to show up at my door. But I know my ego is shaking in its boots, for fear of being judged, mispronouncing a word, or hell, maybe I don't even know how to knit "right".

::deep breaths::

There are much scarier things to be afraid of in this world, and today, I choose to ignore all of the scary things entirely. I say let's jump out of this plane together, and see what happens. If this site ends up being nothing more than a journal of my ADHD self with 0 traffic, at least I took the first step and put myself out there. Life is too short to live with shoulda couldas.

This site is my shoulda coulda - officially in motion. 

If you are reading this, I'm happy you're here and I invite you along for the journey. Let's do this.